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The walls were closing in around him, the voices louder than they ever were before. He waved his heavy head back and forth trying to shut them out, trying to regain the silence. He could hear it all, layers upon layers of voices screaming at him. They never ceased and they seemed to have infinite breath.

The white walls never stopped closing in on him, the walls white-washed with years of destructive thought and agony. They spoke to him too, they screamed the loudest of all. “THIS IS YOU NOW” “EMBRACE US EMBRACE US”. The sounds reverb in his inner ear, they seem to get louder as night approaches.

When he can eat it doesn’t sustain. There is nothing that will help and even though the medicine is poured in front of him, it only drives him further. The shadows are the only friends he can find, they dance around his gaze never seeming to stay in the same place twice. They hiss at him at every chance, knowing that they have the true control. When they disappear they leave a residue of pain behind that they will pick back up once they return.

“YOU WILL NOT YOU CANNOT YOU SHALL NOT”

The voices rise and they fall, they go soft and turn to yells.

Whats left of the sheets lay on a broken mattress laying on the black stone. It was of no use to even be there. It had no purpose, sleep never came, it never gave him the grace that he needed. Instead he was given the dark gift of thought.

Overhead the slight pipes running he could hear the water within, rushing free but still under control. Summoned to some need but he could feel its subtle waves as it splashed along, how he dreamed to have that feeling. Running wild and free and careless. “FREE FREE FREE FREE FREE HELD HELD HELD” They kept overtaking him, they never stopped.

The sun faded away he could see through the bars, he looked down at his hands covered in the grime of life. Subside he could not, they begin their montage. “FREE FREE FREE FLY FLY FLY YOU YOU YOU YOU THEM THEM THEM”

He stands, his feet wobble, his knees scream. He walks to the new sheets function and steps up on the pot. FREEFREEFREEFREEFREEFREEFREEFREEFLYFLYFLYFLYFLYFLYYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUTHEMTHEMTHEMTHEMTHEMTHEMTHEMFREEFREEFREEFREEFREEFREEFLYFLYFLYFLYFLYYOUYOUYOU” He fastens in. “FREEFREEFREEFREEYOUYOUYOUYOUYOUFLYFLYFLYFLYFLYTHEMTHEMTHEMTHEMTHEMGONGONGONE…” He steps off.

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